Deleted old posts, didn't think that I had t be reminded of my past each time I look at my blog. Nd fuckstards, note that I didn't break up with Nizam, or deleted my old posts, just because you spammed my blog. I couldn't be bothered what you think of me. To me, it doesn't matter. I know what, nd who I am. I don't need everybody t love me. Hating me, only shows that you're jealous of me. Love me or hate me, you're still thinking of me. So go ahead, spam more. I'll just continue living my life th way I want. Hate me, nd there are still people who will stay by my side, people like Kak Yanti, Kak Fee, my Jiwerzx, my Twinzx. They understand me, so I don't give a fucking damn if you guys don't. {:

I'm sorry, Nizam. For th hurt I caused you. I know, that you prolly hate me right now. Go ahead. It's not that I don't care if you hate me. It's up t you whether you want t understand. Right now, my bestfs, Kak Yanti, Kak Fee, my twinzx, are th people who matter t me th most. They'd understand. Kak Yanti has been by my side through everything, you should know. You should also know, that I won't be able t give you th love I gave t my ex-boyf. Cause through him, I learnt that I should never ever choose my boyf over my bestfs. Cause like in Kak Yanti's friendster says, "Boyfs Come &Go, But Bestfs Stay Forever". Nd it's true. I can never get bestfs like those I have now, nd I'd give up th world to have them stay by my side forever. Like you should know, I always talk bout my ex, bout Ijan. I still think of them, daily. I couldn't bring myself t love you like how I loved them. It's just, different.

I'm not trying t justify my wrongs, or make me sound right. I know I've done wrong. I'd just give th world, t try t make you understand, though I know you prolly won't. It's up t you, nd up t God. I won't try t earn your understanding. I've done what I can. Though we only spent a short time tgether, we had our fun times. Though they can never compare t th times I spent wit Ijan, with Hazwan, I appreciate all those times. Thnks, for being a friend, a confidant. I'll never forget that you were by my side when I needed you. Again, I'm sorry.

It's funny how me nd Kak Yanti always make th same mistakes. But like she said in her blog, we'll never make th same mistake again. Raaqib, on Kak Yanti's behalf, sorry. I understand how she feels, nd you should too. You should know, love can bring people tgether, or tear them apart. Nd if you love someone, you should always want them t be happy.